Health update.

I haven't updated you all on my health for a while so here is the latest on how I am doing and how I am feeling!!!

Well recently, I complained of the now famous "spaz attacks" that run down the left side of my body. I pointed out that these generally only happen when I am in the car and/or singing while in the car and/or talking while in the car. Basically, they happen when I am in the car!!!

These seem to have passed on now, without any medication which is a good thing as it proves that the bod can heal itself still. That gives me a certain amount of comfort in the fact that future troubles wont rely on medicine alone. If I can tolerate it then perhaps it will pass.

What next? Oh yes, if I drop another thing, I am going to catch it on the volley on the way down!!! I just cant seem to hold onto anything, I drop all sorts of stuff but mainly small things and I think this is because I still have a lot of numbness and loss of feeling in my hands. If its small, I don't feel it too well and I think that's why I am getting doing this.

So that also covers the numbness in my hands!!!

My balance is as ropey as its always been. My left side is definitely suspect and for that reason I would still not trust it in a race. I cant walk any further than I could previously without my left side going all wobbly and I suppose it is the fact that these symptoms are here for the duration.

I was quite sad on the sports day, and this will be news to people as no one would have picked up on it but perhaps I am quite matter of fact here rather than deeply personal. I was quite sad because I did not feel that I could take part in the parents race. It was not a running race or anything too strenuous but I just didn't feel the ability to compete, fun or not, I just did not feel mentally right to be there. Its difficult being me, I don't mind telling anyone that.

Then finally...tired!!! Oh God have I been tired but I think its more to do with the last few weeks that actual symptoms. I could be completely wrong though as its a trademark symptom of people in my position. I just haven't stopped and also, I don't let myself stop and furthermore if I don't stop then I get myself into a mess and take it out on the people I love the most and its not their fault so I end up being mad with myself which makes it all worse.

As I get used to all this, I need to change certain things about the way I live my life. Yes, I always talk about weight etc but a lot of healing can be done if you are in the right place in your mind. I need to tell myself that I am not the man that I was 2-3 years ago (although there is no real reason why I cant return to that in time) but I also need to tell myself that I am not currently capable of being the one stop shop solution that tries his best to make every ones life around him easier with himself as the exception. I will in time learn the perfect balance but while I do, please bear with me.

Right, I am going to bed now.

Go on Jay!!!!

Here is one of those moments that you just cant buy!!!

This is Jay in the Sunnymede School Sports Day this morning absolutely romping home in the flat race!!!

What a champ, don't know where he gets his speed from though, his Dad couldn't run a bath!!!

Happy Birthday Mum

My lovely Mum is 61 today and looking healthier than ever!!!

Happy birthday Mum, from now on, all birthdays will be lovely in your lovely new place looking out over lovely Lord Street in Southport!!!

We love you Mum, we have much to thank you for every day and I hope you have a good one!!!

A tale of 2 cars.....

Here is a tale of 2 cars, the 2 cars you see in the picture above.

Now these 2 cars don't know this but they do actually have something in common and that something is that they have at one time or another been my property.

On the left we have faithful FN57 YBM, my current company car used in my employment at Salto and on the right we have fateful DE05 AVV which I leased back in 2005 when I was briefly employed at Neurodynamics.

The picture was taken in the car park of ASDA in Southport this morning. Kerris spotted my old car and I put them together to chat.

Now the story of fateful DE05 AVV is one of the saddest of my working career. I had decided that access control was not my "raison d’être" in life and so I left Securefast and moved to a CCTV company in Cambridge called Neurodynamics. Without going into too much detail, 6 months in I was made redundant after the company changed hands.

However, fateful DE05 AVV made sure that redundancy was not the bain of life that it should have been. I leased the car following some very poor advice and was locked into a contract which would not let me hand the car back in the event of any unpleasantness.

So it was bad enough not having a job but imagine my horror (and Kerris's sheer panic) at finding out that the car would cost ME £7000.00 to relinquish.

Advice followed and lots of it, there was the chance that I could take the car into my new employment at Ingersoll Rand but that door closed pretty soon after the job was offered to me. At that time, I had no option as the Ingersoll Rand job was all that was on the table.

Finally in a "I can only offer you this much and if you don't accept then it will be waiting for you in the car park of the local Tesco with the windows open and the keys in the ignition" moment, Toyota and myself settled at £4000.00.

As you can now understand, I refer to it as fateful DE05 AVV.

Obviously all the malice has passed though as I didn't kick it or run my keys along the paintwork, its someone else's baby now and they might love it.

Kerris disappeared for a moment with some brake fluid though.......

I created a really witty observation.

While in Wales the other day, I recalled the fact that in the Welsh language, if 2 "dd"s are contained in a word, it is actually pronounced "f".

So based on this observation, when Welsh women buy a bra that is size 34DD, are they actually buying a 34F and if so, which is the better from a mans point of view?

Just an observation.

I have travelled a lot of this world.....

Whilst driving the other day on one of my long distance hauls....I was on my way back from Cardiff.....I was trying to think of exactly all the countries I have visited or stopped in on this great planet we populate.

I had a hell of a job recalling them so based on the fact that in 10 years more of my grey matter will be gone, I thought I would list them for posterity in the future.

In no particular order, thus far I have visited......

United Kingdom
Ireland
France
Spain (Tenerife, Lanzarote, Gran Canaria and the Mainland)
Italy
Germany
Greece (Kefalonia)
Australia
Singapore
India (not official though as I did not get out of the plane!!!)
Dominican Republic
Canada

This distance is an impressive 18500 Miles working roughly east to west and it is the equivalent to me driving my car constantly for 6 months.

Being educated in Europe, we believe there to be 6 continents on the planet, Africa, America, Antarctica, Asia, Australasia and Europe, therefore I have visited 4 of the 6. However, if I were educated in America, they believe we have 7 continents as they split America into North and South. In which case, I have visited 4 of 7.

There you go, something for everyone!!!

Happy Birthday Dad!

My Dad would have been, well he is because you don't stop ageing just because you are not here, the ripe old age of 61 today!

Happy birthday to you!

We are thinking of you today, just as we do every day and we miss you.