Weird!!!

I am possibly the last person in the world to see this and perhaps it illustrates that I should return to Liverpool city centre more often but if this isn't the weirdest building ever then I'll be a monkeys!!!!

You are lucky that I had my spanking new O2 XDA Trion with me. Its more of a portable PC than a phone so I got it out and used the video camera to full effect.

My mate Nick told me about this. All he said was, go to Liverpool, get off at Moorfields train station and then look at the building directly opposite.

If you made this, email me, I want to be your friend, I want to see more of your work!!!

Zorbing!!!!

Take a look at this piece of cinematic art!!! My good friend Nick Bartlett and I had a go at Zorbing last week.

To go into more detail, I am Nick's best man at his wedding to the lovely Cara on October 6th and as well as organising the stag night (which happens next weekend - God help us) I wanted to do something special for my friend. So I tried in vain to not give too much away by saying that he wont leave the ground and he will be sick!!! It did not take the brain of Columbo to figure it out for Nick and so last week we headed down to Bournemouth for a night out followed by the Zorbing.

If you go to Bournemouth for a night out, go at the weekend as it is desperate during the week!!!

Anyway, disaster was averted as the Zorb was cancelled for the 2 days prior to our go due to this fantastic lack of summer weather we have had in the UK this year!!!

We were meant to do 2 Zorbs. One in a harness (the one to make you sick) and one called a Hydro Zorb where you go down without a harness and drown in water....its affectionately called the "Spin Cycle".

Because of the poor weather, mainly a blowy side wind, the harness Zorb was cancelled on the day so instead we did 2 Hydro Zorbs.

Well all I can say is its the kind of fun that can only happen in a large inflatable ball filled with water and chunky blokes. We laughed, even more so the second time. I could honestly do it all day. It does not look much on the video but when you are in there,......my God!!!

Enjoy!!!

ADSL.......

Hello, long time no speak eh!!!

Sorry for the silence, it's all down to ADSL and the good people of Virgin. Let me explain.....

In my new job, I want to work hard as my new company obviously want me working to my full potential and similarly, I want to make a success of it so a working hard ethic is good thing to possess.

With Ingersoll Rand, I have been home based for a good period of time and if I ever wanted to work from an office, I had to travel to either Newcastle or Birmingham to do so.

So, getting back to my point, my new company are a 45 minute drive away in Runcorn. If I need a desk to work at then I would prefer to do it from there, as well as being able to pitch in, I will work harder in a work environment and have less distractions to take my mind off the job. Therefore, the need for a home office is much less of a requirement for me now.

I have a second phone line that Ingersoll Rand pay for in the house and that also carries the ADSL into the house. Seen as though I have no need for that second phone line now, I needed to get it disconnected and also have the ADSL changed so that it comes into the house on the main phone line. After a little jiggery pokery with a screwdriver at the BT box on the outside wall, the second line socket in the computer room is now no longer a second phone line and has become an extension of the main line and now carries ADSL.

Phew....seamless you would think? No, Virgin have to disconnect my ADSL on the current line and then reconnect on the new line. All in all, about a week between the 2 operations and so we have been using dial up.

Anyone who remembers what dial up is like will feel the pain. Its just not quick at doing anything!!! So, dial up is now off and ADSL is back on and therefore the blog returns!!!

Stay tuned......

The future's bright, the future is......Onyx!!!

Well I have been hinting for a few days that I may have some news that previously I could not mention but today I am very happy to let you know that I have accepted a new job and my short and glorious career at Ingersoll Rand Security Technologies is coming to an end.

I am joining Onyx Security Hardware, a new (well 18 months old) and friendly company who are based in Runcorn and mainly sell into the Locksmith market place. My job is to promote the entire product range but ultimately to develop sales of Access Control (my speciality subject) mainly in the North of the UK. The thought is that as long as I can develop the business, I can wherever I want in the UK but there is more than enough companies to target in the North so hopefully the long trips to London each week will a much more rare occurrence!!!

I am happy for a number of reasons, in no particular order, I have been disillusioned at IR for a long time now and I need to be one of those people who gets their kicks from the feeling that they are valued in a company and making a difference. That feeling has gone from IR and at Onyx, its a much tighter ship so you cant hide and being the external face of the company, I will need to work very hard to ensure that the risk they are taking on me is repaid in full!!! Its going to be hard work but its a good team and a friendly team and there is a genuine feeling that we will enjoy ourselves and have a laugh along the way.

I am happy because I have been able to be completely honest with them concerning my Myelitis diagnosis. I always felt that I had to hide it at IR but I was determined in my next job to not have to hide anything and thankfully, they were completely chilled about it. As long as I am honest with them and I see any symptoms coming then there isn't anything we cant work around.

Finally I am happy because all of the blog entries below have seen me in a slight depression as things ave progressed along. Now, its like several large weights have been lifted from my shoulders and I feel a lot more like the man that people know me to be. So there is a huge reason to be cheerful.

I would ask you to look at the Onyx website to find out some more, but if you click on http://www.onyx-hardware.com/ you wont see too much info. Yes, that will also be one of my jobs, get some products on there....quickly!!!!

I am now going to go and enjoy my weekend.

Nothing like being a bit nocturnal......

Its been a long time since I sat here in the wee hours to do a blog entry. Back then it was because Methylprednisolone was keeping me awake but right now I am being kept awake for other reasons.

The difficult thing is, I don't want to say why!!! I can tell you on Friday I hope but at the moment, there are so many thoughts buzzing in my head that I just cant get to sleep. I don't know if updating my blog will help but it gives me something to concentrate on so that can only be a good thing.

So what kind of thoughts are racing through my brain then? Well, amongst other things I tend to worry a lot lately, hopefully part of that will be sorted out later this week though. I also worry about what the future holds for me, I worry about the past and how I could have changed small things along the way and how I felt I wasn't strong enough or assertive enough to achieve certain goals. I worry about missed opportunities in life and wonder if I would be a different person because of them. I just worry about all the same things everyone else worries about with the exception that until very recently, I did not worry about these things at all.

When I give it a good thinking about, I come to the conclusion that the events of this year have changed me. Much as I try to deny it, I have been rocked to my core by it all. I realised that I am not invincible, I am a mere mortal and as such I have to suffer as everyone else can along the way. I have shown emotions this year that I never thought I would show on the surface and in doing so I have realised that I need the support of people around me. I need to be told that everything will be OK and I need to be re-assured. These are all qualities that I thought were my mission to give out in life so its slightly uncomfortable to be in a position where I need them too!!!

Lately, I seem to have developed a small fear of "not doing anything". By that I mean that as long as my mind is occupied then everything is OK. When I switch off and my brain goes quiet, at bedtime for instance, my mind then starts to race with all of the above worries that I suppressed so well when I was busy.

Another thing is that this is exactly what Kerris used to do and I would lie there telling her just to relax and forget about it all and go to sleep. Now the worm has turned and I feel her pain!!!

OK , so there is a lot going on up there but realistically I should be thankful that although I have had a few tests and visits to the consultant recently, nothing has progressed and as long as life is like that then I should be happy. I should be happy about the fact that I have a beautiful wife, 2 great kids and a loving family around me and I am always thankful for the help we get from our respective parents. I am happy that we live in a nice house, have no real financial worries and that we generally get to do a lot of nice things along the way. So there is a lot to be happy about and with this in mind, I am on a roll so I will keep those thoughts exactly where I need them to be, at the forefront of my head and go back to bed!!!

You see, I always worry that I have to end on a positive note...........

Falling apart!!!

I think that turning 30 a few years ago was the beginning of the end health wise!!! I was saying to a friend yesterday that prior to 30 I was in pretty good health.

Anyway, since then, I have had several reasons to visit a GP or a consultant and perhaps its the case that my body has decided to take revenge for the years of abuse I have put it through. You would think my body would be grateful for all the fine foods, chocolates and cream cakes I have treated it to. I challenge anyone to point out a body that enjoys ice cream and milkshakes more than mine does!!!

Well all that has changed, I am not a picture of health but I am now of any age where I consider that if I am in McDonalds then perhaps the super size meal is not the best and I cant remember the last time I had a cream cake or shovelled a tub full of Phish Food (mmmmm....) down my gullet.

I am probably in a period where over the next few years, all the toxins that were once in place will slowly but surely disappear.

To keep in with the falling apart theme, I was at the doctors again yesterday with tender nuts!!! I instantly thought I had some kind of tumor so I got into my GP pretty handy. So after a good feel around my most private ginger bits, I have a course of antibiotics and a sample to wait on the results of.

Like I said, falling apart.........

Stop at square 1 and dont pass go!!!

Here are the details of my follow up with the consultant then.

Basically its a case of do nothing. I have no nerve damage, the condition does not debilitate me so it will either clear up very slowly over time or it could get worse or it may just stay as it is for the rest of my days.

I don't show too much emotion on this blog, I state a lot of what happens to me in a light hearted way and as matter of fact but I don't mind sharing one of my biggest fears.

Its hard to put to words but I will try. If indeed this is something that will stay with me then the small adjustments that I make in life enable me to go on without any signs of trouble. However, I have made small adjustments to compensate for lots of things.

I don't walk as fast or as far as this compensates for my balance problems.
I don't break into a run as this compensates for my balance.
I don't sing loudly as this creates a cold feeling in my face.
I don't drink anything like I could previously as this compensates for the lethargy I have the following day.
I don't do any heavy lifting as this compensates for any back trouble around my inflammation area.
And now, I constantly wiggle my hands and fingers as this compensates for the cold and numb feeling I get when they are at rest.

Lots of compensating and so hopefully you begin to understand my frustration at my condition.

I just don't want to be one of those people who is useless because "I cant do that because" or "I cant do that either". That is my deepest fear, I like people to rely on me and if I don't feel that people can then I don't see the point in very much else.

Is that all a little deep? Well, sometimes its good to get the dark side out, I feel better already for writing this!!!